53rd post
Wednesday, November 30, 2005 9:05 PM
aku tidak ingin melihat diriku sebagai seorang yang malang. tetapi, sebaliknya, aku harus bersikap positif terhadap diriku kerana sekurang-kurangnya, aku telah dilahirkan dengan anggota badan yang sempurna.
kehidupan ini tidak seharusnya kulihat sebagai suatu kegagalan tetapi sebagai suatu cabaran yang akan membuatku lebih tabah dalam masa hadapan. aku masih tetap mempunyai manusia yang menyayangiku selama ini. aku tidak mungkin akan berputus asa begitu sahaja.
apa yang mereka lalui amatlah lebih teruk daripada apa yang aku sedang lalui. oleh itu, aku harus mencontohi mereka kerana kesabaran mereka adalah tauladan bagi saya. aku telah mula menjadi lebih prihatin kepada dunia di sekelilingku. aku cuba mengikut yang baik dan menghiraukan yang buruk.
aku amat berterimakasih atas hadiah yang telah diberikan kepadaku iaitu keluargaku, rakan-rakanku dan mereka yang telah banyak menolongku semasa perjalanan kehidupanku selama ini.
okay, now im gonna blog in english..=))
todae got sunning of ropes. apparently i was the only one there who thought that we had to come early for the wrong thing. haizz. the sunning of ropes was quite short. stayed in school for a few hours. helped to clean the tents, pegs and also dry up the gunnysacks.
then after that went to singapore post with shruti, wei wen and silin. spent quite a lot of time there especially at this fashion. but after that i really realised what is the latest fashion, which is crumpled skirts..hahax. then they wanted me to wear this dress which i immediately refused.
then went to some halal hong kong confectionery where the chocolate doughnut was nice and watsons and also ntuc. then went home. shruti decided to take the mrt so me and wei wen and silin walked to the bus stop alone. wei wen took 154 so me and silin took the same bus. after she went down. i slept all the way till i was at toa payoh coz i was so tired..
then the day went on and i watched tv and here i am blogging.=))
~ME!~
52nd post
Tuesday, November 29, 2005 8:11 AM
im reading this very touching book though i can't seem to cry over it. i guess love is blind and people do the wrong things because of it. but not all types of love is really blindlar.
and parents with their children refusing to take care of them really suffer though they try to go through old age cheerfully with their spouse.
okay so abt camp. well, i suppose no one got crushes. haha. it went by very fast. and soon school is going to commence too. it just goes to show that life is really short. camp was..actually i dun really noe how to describe it. i hav a lot of different feelings abt camp. so basically i suppose it was ermm..neutral??i dunno..
the activities was nice and everything also lar i guess. i wasn't really tired when i went home though. there was a lot of tension between me and mi sis since camp. dunnolar. like it's weird to talk normally after everything that has happened. well, i shall just like time take its own course.
i was thinking abt everything that has happened this year and somehow my feeling overwhelmed me. so much has happened and i became stronger. but somehow my perspective towards certain things changed. some for the better and some for the worse. somehow i dun even noe why im feeling this way also.
and suddenly i miss my childhood days where u do not ever need to worry abt anything. since i became a teenager, it just seems harder though im trying to take a step each day. u dun even noe wat is going to happen and u feel lost and ppl expect u to become more independent. but teenage has got its ups too..i dunnolar. im just doing a lot of thinking these days. sometimes i think abt things which isn't even connected to me.
sorry chaili i can't really talk abt annual camp coz i dun feel like saying it all over again. experiencing it was more than enough for me..
~yesterday i dreamt about a surfer stranded on the ocean. another surfer helped her through the ocean. somehow i feel that im related to this dream..~
51th post
Tuesday, November 22, 2005 9:30 AM
hmm let me see..
on saturday, i decided to go jogging with my brother at 8 am. i was to jog 2.4 km in 16 mins. but i felt that the route we took was more than 2.4 km. i was like lying flat at the playground when we finished jogging. my whole body was aching. and i finished the 2.4 km in 17 mins plus. haizz..i think i lost all my stamina liaoz.
then, at night got some gathering and i went. me and my sisters got front row seats. hahax. the whole thing was quite enjoyable. =))
then on sunday, went out hari raya but without my father and sister. so my second elder brother was the driver. ate a lot at each of the houses. then went to huda's hse for her open hse. chatted with faezah and huda..and also disturbed my sis with her younger brother..hahax..
then went home and was like so tired. and im still tired coz i haven rested since i came back from school todae..
better get off the com now. my 5 mins is up!..byee!!!
p.s. i finished a book! actually it's a children's bk but it's very interesting and i'm so happy with myself for finishing it..=))
50th post
Saturday, November 19, 2005 1:20 AM
Mungkin-Anuar Zain
Biarkanlah saja diriku sendirian tanpamu
Biarkanlah aku merindu sekian lama
Bukan maksud untuk membisusepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian
( korus )
Mungkinkah bersama dua jiwa ini
Dalam mencari cinta sejati
Mungkinkah segala derita di jiwa
Akan terubat kini
Biarkanlah saja diriku sepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian
( bridge )
Hanya satu pintaku
Sabarlah menanti
Ku kan pulang bersama
Cinta...
juz a lyric for a song i love..hahax.
49th post
Thursday, November 17, 2005 12:04 AM
okay..here to talk about atc because celestine requested for it. hahax =)
first day:
the walk to the campsite took all my energy. i was like wanting to juz sit down and rest when i reached the campsite. haryani was like just swearing all the way to the campsite coz her shoelaces got mud. kind of entertaining but at that time..i just kept quiet. =)
then reached there and had lunch. but me and a few other ppl had to take logistics for atf. so we had our lunch later. after that was kayaking. something which caused yati to have a grudge on me and she never fails to show it whenever we talk abt this subject..haizz..
when i first started kayaking, me and my partner had a very hard time controlling the kayak. so we joined the raft very late. we had to make a lot of u-turns. i think my boat was like jinxed or sth. everytime, we wanted to turn left, the kayak turned right.
after we finally joined the raft, we had to try changing seats. if i knew what was going to happen, i would never have agreed to change seats with chaili. it was a very very difficult task. i fell down like almost every step i took. then when i reached the kayak i was to sit in, i slipped and fell into the water. only my right hand and leg got hold of the kayak. on my left was yati's kayak. i hold onto yati's kayak with my left hand. i was like struggling to get my body onto my kayak but couldn't. in the end, i grabbed a guy's hand and he helped push me onto my seat. and i was all wet by that time but relieved. when i sat down, i looked at yati's kayak and saw that it was filled with so much seawater that it was a bit underwater. the sir decided that they had to get the water out. which meant that yati and her partner had to get out of the kayak.
after yati got out, she took hold of my kayak and was like telling me that she didn't want to die and that she would never forgive me for that. then yati had to hold onto ma'am shi yun's kayak and was underwater for wat seemed to be like forever.
then, when everything was okay, we broke raft and me and my partner started paddling. halfway through he got seasick so i paddled alone. until ma'am came and help us. but we did not seem to be moving. and the powercraft was not coming to us. so she got another sir to help us get to shore. i had to hold on to the sir's kayak as he moved. he moved quite fast but i managed to hold on.so that was abt the kayaking part. after that..nothing really happened on the first day. except that it was very cold at night in the canteen.
second day:
we had fire drill. i think we got pumped for not alerting the boys.
pioneering and atf. atf was fun fun fun. i managed to climb the rock wall..and so did a lot of other ppl.haha. then the gun was quite okay. we got 11 points. at least we passed. learnt a lot of lesson from the 'gun' activity.
the maze was quite scary but we managed to go through. i was like so relieved when they opened the other door.
pioneering was okay. our structure, which was the clothes hanger cum dustbin was stable. but im not really sure about the other structure which was for tidying up our tent. i think the guys didn't get to finish it.
oh yar..in the morning we had to come up with a grp cheer. wee kiat and shui yan came up with it and it's quite nicelar..we were enthu everytime we cheered our cheer..yay! lunch and dinner was okay. except that filzah dumped a lot of stuff in the maggi mee to finish up the food. me and mingling, my grpmate nearly vomitted trying to eat maggi with baked beans.
third day:
area cleaning.
evryone worked together so it was quite okay. although we were quite slow. we managed to finish cleaning everything.
then went back home.
i think atc was tiring but experiential and fun. learnt a lot of cheers from other schools. =) i think i blogged long enough already..
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48th post
Thursday, November 10, 2005 12:01 AM
adakah ini apa yang ku mahu dalam hidupku? adakah apa yang ku buat ini salah?semalam, ibuku berkata denganku "apa yang kita lakukan dalam hidup, kita mesti selalu ingat merendahkan diri" memang betul kata ibuku itu. katanya itu seperti menyindir aku. oleh, itu, aku merenungkannya hingga kini.
hubunganku dengan rakan-rakanku tidak berpanjangan. betul tetapi ibuku kata itu tidak penting. apa yang penting adalah hubungan kita dengan saudara-mara. dan apa yang penting adalah komunikasi. dengan berkomunikasi antara satu sama lain, kita akan dapat mengeratkan tali silaturrahim sesama saudara.
bagiku, bukannya senang untuk aku berbual-bual bersama saudara-maraku setelah setahun tidak berjumpa dengannya. aku terfikir..bagaimanakah ibu bapaku boleh terus sahaja berbual dengan mereka yang lebih dari setahun tidak berjumpa dengan mereka. inilah masalahku. tidak dapat berkomunikasi dengan orang yang ku tahu tetapi sudah lama tidak bercakap dengannya.
ini adalah penting bagi masa depan kerana apabila aku kerja nanti, aku akan berjumpa dengan pelbagai manusia yang tidak kukenali. adakah aku akan berseorangan dan bersembunyi sahaja. tidak bukan?
komunikasi itu juga oenting dalam sebarang hubungan. kerana tidak berkomunikasilah, hubungan seseorang itu akan runtuh. kerana tidak ada semacam benda yang mengikatkan kita dalam hubungan itu..
merendah diri. adakah aku telah merendah diri? merendah diri ertinya tidak membuat seseorang itu berasa asing ataupun kecil hati. aku tidak tahu.
walaubagaimnapun, aku telah mempelajari sesuatu malam semalam. iaitu komunikasi dalam sesebuah hubungan dan juga merendah diri walau bagaimana berjaya pun kita di dunia ini.
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47th post
Monday, November 07, 2005 12:03 PM
here i am again. the last time i posted sth was on my birthday.
a lot of things has happened since then with hari raya still going on. tried making ketupat(those checkered stuff they hang in or outside their hse during hari raya) five or six times but it didn't work though i did sort of progressed a bit..i think these sort of stuff can only be done by those with special hands or sth coz it's really hard.
then came the big day. decorated myself and then visited my relatives. i realised that it is very tiring to wear high heels and walking around. however, i still wear it. coz apparently i dun have any other hari raya shoes and it's gd practice also.
received money as usual though a bit more as a belated birthday present. like previous years, we managed to cover 14 houses on the first. we tried 15 but every one juz passed out after the 14th hse which was at toa payoh.
my aunt came from kuala lumpur. we had to squeeze a bit at night. but having them ard was kinda nice..
watched a few documentaries as well. one for homework where i recorded down the facts and the others just for entertainment and general knowledge. i find some very entertaining especially those from national geographic.
then went out for the next few days after hari raya again.
then on saturday..which was yesterday.. we went to johor to visit my relatives there. we started our journey at ard 7 pm and there was a traffic jam while we were going in and out of malaysia. i slept a lot during the journey as i was very tired. then we stopped at a small coffee shop there to buy dinner. the children were actually playing with fire crackers and making it into fireworks.. it was very noisy but a nice experience to see sparkles in the sky..
the road was very stony and i was wearing high heels as usual so it was kinda difficult for me to walk around. we had to wait for a long time for our food but after that we went to my grandmother's hse. to our utter disappointment, no one was at home but the gate was open so we just parked our car inside and sat at the cushions outside. my mum started eating and i ate a bit too..after a short while, my grandfather appeared and we went in. we went to i slept for ard and hour and a half at my grandmother's hse before going back to singapore. by the time we reached home..it was nearly 3 am..i was so tired i slept almost immediately..
todae, we went out again and im feeling kinda tired now but later my relatives are actually coming so i carn sleep yet. hehs. =))
byee!! ~ i'll always treasure the moments we shared~
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46th post
Wednesday, November 02, 2005 2:35 AM
happy birthday to me!
happy birthday to me!
happy birthday to haslina!
happy birthday to me!
yay..im finally 14..
nothing much has happened except that i finished my harry potter book and doesn't have any book to read now. i dun really bother to go to the library coz hari raya is coming so yar..
~happy deepavali to all!~ byee!!!!
