i'm deprived of sleep!
like really, i hope i can get through this period of time.
my work is piling up and i just pray that i will manage to finish it in time.

yesterday, mr dzul made me realise that i haven't been keeping in touch with the world. haven't been reading the newspapers and such :(

today, i listened to never gone by bsb.

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way

I walk along these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

oh God, thank You for always being there for me :)

pictures of yesterday!

Republic Polytechnic for SYF rehearsal :)









& my favourite picture of all (in NJ!):



masyaallah, sungguh indah awan di langit(such beautiful clouds)!

oh man, you won't know how good it feels now that my history test is over.
it was like a huge burden throughout the whole week la.
i barely survived.
luckily, thanks to ELAINE LIM and GERALDINE CHAI, i manage to laugh like crazy today. it felt realllly awesome. to laugh that heartily, about korean war and cuban missile crisis some more. HAHA!

i'm glad the week's coming to an end. but then again, there's lots of homework to be done and next week's gonna be a hectic week again. with angklung and drama.


insyallah, i'll pull through this year :)

My stress relievers!:)

back from batam.
don't want school to start!

ohh mann, yesterday's bbq at aunt's rented bungalow was ultra fun! just the break i needed in a hectic week. i don't know why, but everyone seemed very happy. well, as they say, the more the merrier. the best part was seeing my grandfather's face light up at the company of our family :)

i managed to catch up with my cousins, i miss talking to them! we meet pretty rarely, which is sad la. and the kids were super cute! i played snap with them and it shocked me to see how competitive they actually are. but oh wells, maybe i was once like that too. && it was amusing to see their reaction when i told them my name was siti nurhaliza. hahahahaha!

can't wait for this sat's trip to batam with extended family! but sad that fadilah, faezah, fauziyah and kak farhanah won't be joining us :(

at times, i may dislike/disagree with the way people think or behave.
but then, i realise that these thoughts and behaviour can sometimes be found even in myself.


and thus, today has been a wake up call for me.


alhamdulillah.

mann, i haven't watched such a great movie in months! it's so heartwarming and for some parts heartwrenching that i cried. frankly speaking, i hate crying while watching movies. but i simply couldn't help it this time. the story about family made me open my eyes to the complexities of the bond between family members, especially between brothers. yet again, this bond remains as strong as ever even after the family went through many challenges.

i shouldn't be watching too much of movies, really, but this one was definitely worth my two hours++. ahhh, much satisfaction derived :)

nazira's mum was right when she said "when something bad happens, don't be sad because something greater and better will come from it." now i have BIGGER and BETTER wheels for my kulintang! happy happy :)

and yesterday, i watched a korean movie, my sassy girl cause it was highly recommended by my teacher. haha, the movie was really funny and nice la. but no way can i afford such leisure anymore. much homework during holidays! oh wells, expected.
oh, diyanah told me that teachers nowadays are trying to be hip. like she had this teacher who offered to lend her his jap dvds. haha!

today's pe lesson was funny! i think mr sham's the funniest pe teacher ever. besides mr menon. but then he 'accused' me of posing when we were cooling down. sheesh. haha, truth is, i couldn't feel the stretch so i was moving my body here and there to make sure i stretched my legs properly okay!

:D

Operation Run Away from PE Lesson was successful.
after like three attempts.
haha, but it was so funny that it made my day :D


well, i suppose i should use the time now to create memories as such in NJ before all the stress for a levels comes.

alhamdulillah :)

Tribute to my elder sister to congratulate her for her results.

i think my sister is WAY MORE independent than i am. she doesn't whine as much as i do. well, at least not to my parents. and she doesn't get angry easily. maybe she hides her anger? i'm not sure of that. Being only one year apart, there was always this competition between us. when we were young, it used to be the issue of who could draw or colour better. when we were older, it involved the things that we each had. then it sort of become our achievements in studies. i don't know if she felt it but i certainly did. but then again, i am grateful because it was this competing feeling that made me study to the best of my ability.

i don't know if it's true but i think she's the person i spent most of my life with. i was in the same school with her for 10 years. when i was in primary school, she was with me to and from school. on my first day in cedar, she was there too. i guess i've never thought about it, but i wonder what life would have been like without her. sometimes, when i stop and observe her for one moment, i realise that there's many things in life she has given me which i'm indebted to her. she was the one who had the answers to my schoolwork. i never really saw her sacrifices but being an elder sister myself, i know there were surely many things she must had done for me which i failed to see.

her jokes are simply beyond me. she makes me laugh like no one else does. and simply because we've been with each other for so long, sometimes, we understand what the other is saying even when no one else does. i do sense her protectiveness over me at times and i love her for that. no matter how much we bicker, no matter how high or far we may reach, the sister bond between us can never be broken.

and somehow deep down, that makes me feel glad :)

my first reaction was serious shock and awe at the same time.
and that's because my sister got 5 A'S FOR A LEVELS! like *gasps gasps*
syukur alhamdulillah :) congrats to you, kak sulaiha.


no pressure man, just do your best now.

i'm mentally tired.
syukur alhamdulillah i'm able to get past these few days.

may i remain in good health.
amin.

on sunday, i followed my younger sister to junction 8 to buy her pumps. and somehow i began to reflect the impact she has made in my life.

there were times when she made me very irritated, annoyed and angry. i would hate her for all the times she scolded me, for all the times she wasn't studying when she was supposed to, for being selfish and rude, for being hot-tempered and for calling me names when i was already feeling down. i do remember the times when we had our fights. when we were young, it was physical. punching, slapping, kicking. when we were older, it became a war of the words and just simply hurting the other person deep down.

but then again, she's the reason why i grew up a lot. because she was the only younger sibling i had, i felt a certain sense of responsibility towards her. when i wasn't hating her, i love her. the feeling would just come naturally. when she was nice, it would touch my heart. when she did well, i'd feel proud of her. being an elder sister taught me a WHOLE LOT of patience i would never have learnt elsewhere. seriously, there were many instances when i had to hold my anger and it made me feel like breaking down. though there were times i envied her for the things she had, i realised she felt the same way towards me as well. and as she grows up, i see a bit of myself in her and just hopes she enjoys life the way i do.

simply put, i'm blessed to have been given a younger sister, even with all her imperfections :)

Has/Lina/Nina
Bioengineering, NUS

حَسْبُنَا اللَّهُ وَنِعْمَ الْوَكِيلُ

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