MasyaAllah. Sobs.

I LOVE WEDDINGS! everybody so happy..so sad I was there for only a while..

Engineering's definitely been a rollercoaster ride for me. Challenging me on every side. Attacking my brain cells every single day, squeezing out every ounce of common sense and logic I had. Okay, a bit of exaggeration here but you get the picture. Haha. At times, it was fun but often, it got overwhelming. Ever since I left Cedar, I told myself I would never do physics again. After leaving NJC, I was determined not to take Mathematics anymore. Hahaha here I am, undertaking two of my most hated subjects. Do I regret it?

For what it's worth, I'll never regret joining engineering. No matter how much I've complained about it or screamed my head off because of it. Deep down, I'm thankful I took this path for one very simple but life-changing reason. It brought me closer to Allah. Each day I prayed for Allah to bring me closer to Him and without me realising it, He answered my prayers. Certainly not in a way I would have liked, but through many trials which tested every bit of patience I had. Then again, as ustazah said, trials are meant for you to reflect on. So that at the end of the day, you know that Allah put you through it because it's for the best.

I'm putting this thought on my blog because I need to constantly remind myself of this. This exams period have been tough and there were many times I questioned my existence in engineering. So yep. Even when Allah put me through trials, He gave me people I could depend on for motivation. Plus a video which made me laugh everytime I watch it. Hahaha. Syukur Alhamdulillah!

May Allah Most Merciful continue to help and guide me in my daily endeavours. Amin :)

I finally found the meaning to my name the other day. Was really really excited! Been searching for it quite a couple of years back when I was finding my own identity. Cos according to Dr Fazilah Kamsah, the first step to knowing your identity is to find out the meaning to your name. Alhamdulillah, I was still able to create an identity for myself even without knowing the meaning of my name. Haha I used to wish my name had a siti or nur cos at least, there would be some meaning to it. Well, apparently, my name HAS a meaning in both classical and arabic dictionaries. And the name my family calls me, Nina, also has a meaning. Pretty cool! :D

Yesterday was my first exam paper.. Kind of enjoyed doing it for the first hour. But then I realised I didnt know how to do like half the paper. Hahaha. So Dinah, not complaining about the paper at all doesn't mean I knew how to do everything...Just the 'complaining won't change anything' mindset lah. Haha. But don't worry, Im sure you'll do fine Dinah :) Insyaallah, we'll all do fine.

Kak Hanisah's birthday! :)
birthday girl so happy ah :)

a lot of food!

dessert, yummmmm

2 Haslinas! same age some more. Hahaha

2nd dec faster come!

"Consequently, the inner worlds of those who have not come under that training and whose hearts are therefore yet to be reconciled with peace resemble forests in which numerous animals dwell. Virtually disguised under their temperaments are the natures of numerous animals. Some are as cunning as foxes, while others are as ferocious as hyenas. Some take after ants and greedily stockpile, and others are as venomous as snakes. Some caress before they bite whereas others suck blood like slugs; there are yet others that hide deceit behind a smile. Each of these are attributes peculiar to certain animals.

A person unsuccessful in breaking the domination of his ego through spiritual education, thus unable to construct a firm character is under the constant siege of such deplorable habits. Many a person is dictated by the character of a single animal, while there are an added more dominating others. Besides, as their natures reflect onto their looks, it is not so difficult to pick out their hidden characters, for those who understand. Their behaviour is like a mirror that, without ever lying, reflects their inner worlds."

-The ExempLar Beyond Compare Muhammad Mustafa, Osman Nuri TOPBAS-

I guess this is something for me to reflect on as well as improve. This is not to say that animals do not have any good attributes because indeed, they do know the meaning of love and courage too...

:)

After reflecting, I thank Allah for bringing me back down to where I am now. Having to start from scratch. Having to struggle to understand whatever I am learning. Then, my head remains humble and not complacent. Best of all, I continue to turn to Allah and supplicate to Him.

Also, when you are in a difficult state, you tend to appreciate whatever others do for you. Allah Most Merciful has given me much help and motivation through the people around me. Alhamdulillah :)

Here's a shout out to people I wanna thank:
Thank you Dinah and Rahiem for the constant motivation and offering help with my maths and physics. Really appreciate it a lot! To my best friend Safa, thank you for always being there and for all the prayers from you and your family :) Kak Hanisah and Kak Farhana Bibi, thank you for always being nice to me and layaning me. Haha

Last but definitely not least, a big thank you to my family who can make me laugh even when I'm experiencing the worst stress level. Especially my parents, my pillars of strength. Love you all!

ya Allah, jagalah hati hambamu ini...

Thank you abang shahiddin for listening to my woes yesterday. For reminding me to do what I feel is right and not what other people expect of me. And for making me laugh! Haha. Thank you for your comforting words of advice :)

Alhamdulillah...Love you abang! :D

On My Way Here

I've seen the best
I've seen the worst
I wouldn't change what I've been through
I've touched the sky
I've hit the wall
But I did what I had to

CHORUS:
On my way here
Where I am now
I've learned to fly
I have to want to leave the ground
I've fallen hard
But I've been loved
And in the end it all works out
My faith has conquered fear
On my way here.

-Clay Aiken

Just realised that I could connect with these words.

And this is random but trees have a calming effect on me. Oh yes, kids really can make me smile for no reason. Like each time I see them I will smile. Before Arabic class ytd, I was reading my book near the playground. When I glanced at the kids at the playground I smiled. Today, while on the bus, I saw children in NUS, probably having a school trip. Then I smiled. Hahaha. Cute ah kids :)

Alhamdulillah...

Virtues of Pregnancy
from http://www.haqislam.org

When a woman is pregnant with a child, all the angels will make Istighfar (repentance) on her behalf.

Allah SWT will, for each day of her pregnancy, write for her 1000 good deeds and erase from her 1000 bad deeds.

When a pregnant woman starts to feel the pain from contractions, Allah SWT will write in her records as someone who is doing jihad (spiritual or physical struggle) in His path.

When a woman becomes pregnant by her husband and he is pleased with her, she obtains the reward of a person engaging in fasting for Allah SWT and a person spending the night in ibaadah (worship).

A woman from the time of pregnancy until childbirth and weaning the baby, is like the Mujahid (someone fighting in the path of Allah, swa) who is stationed on the frontiers of the Islamic land. If she dies during this period, she dies the death of a shahid (martyr).

Two raka’at salaat performed by a pregnant woman is better than 80 raka’at salaat performed by a non-pregnant woman.

A woman who is pregnant gets the reward of fasting during the day and of doing ibaadah (worship) during the nights.

A woman who gives birth gets the reward of 70 years of salaat (prayer) and fasting. For each vein that feels pain, Allah SWT gives her the reward of one accepted hajj (Pilgrimage to Makkah).

If the woman dies within 40 days of giving birth, she will die as a shahid (matyr).

(Hadith)…….”A woman that dies during her pregnancy or at the time of birth or thereafter (in nifaas) will attain the rank of a martyr”

Nabi(salalaallahu alayhi wassallam) is reported to have also said “…When her labour pains commence, the inhabitants of the earth and the sky are unaware of the stores of comfort that are prepared for her. When she delivers and breast feeds her child, then she will be granted a reward for every gulp of milk, if she had to remain awake during the night for the sake of the child, she will receive the reward of emancipating seventy slaves in the path of Allah Ta’ala. O Salaamat! Do you know who these women are? They are pious, upright, with a delicate nature yet obedient to their husbands and not ungrateful to them”


Masyaallah, Allah the Merciful. Some people might then ask, how about the women who are not given the chance to be pregnant? Well, Allah is with the patient. And Allah has said that the reward for patience is endless. So, if they are patient with the test given to them, then they will get their fair share of reward. Surely, Allah is Most Just and All-Knowing.

Wassalam :)

I definitely had an awesome birthday this year, alhamdulillah.. Like I told a friend, my birthday this year was less hyper but more sentimental. I suppose as you grow older, it doesn't matter how many birthday celebrations you have but the people you celebrate it with that do. So all those who celebrated my birthday with me, thank you very much! Truly grateful to all of you.. And to the countless wishes, thank you very much as well. Every single one of you. I'm one blessed kid. Haha! :D

I was listening to shaykh hamza yusuf's lecture today on the bus rides to and from home. Masyaallah, the knowledge he has is just truly unbelievable! Thank you very much kak farhana, for the tons of islamic lectures you passed to me..It's like at first, I didn't really see the meaning of what he was saying so I was rather restless listening to it but then as I listened on, I kind of saw how it all sort of linked together. Cause the first part of the lecture was kinda the background. There's this sentence I remembered because it suddenly motivated me.

"When Allah deprives His servant of something, and the servant reacts with resignation and patience, Allah will give him more than what He deprived him of." Masyaallah, and he said this was promised by Allah. However, the important thing he said prior to that, was before we resign to Allah, we must have had done our best or put in our best effort. It's interesting ah cause I can definitely apply it to my life right now as a student. Now I don't find my journeys to school a waste of time anymore :)

Has/Lina/Nina
Bioengineering, NUS

حَسْبُنَا اللَّهُ وَنِعْمَ الْوَكِيلُ

We have, as human beings, a storytelling problem. We're a bit too quick to come up with explanations for things we don't really have an explanation for.

- Malcom Galdwell, Blink -


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