I just realised that I am leaving for Cambodia next Saturday! My two weeks are packed and I am not prepared for my trip at all. So many things to settle :/ Does anyone have a poncho and travelling backpack or either one? If you do, please inform me k! Will need them for my trip this time.
Yesterday was truly an eventful day. Many lessons learnt. MasyaAllah. I would never have expected all of it from what I thought would be a simple JB trip.
First, as we set off, tayar pancit! So we drove around and around but wasn't able to find a tire shop which was open at 7+ in the morning. That really needed a lot of patience. But alhamdulillah, thanks to my friend, we managed to find one shop though it was alr close to 9 by then. I've never been to a tire shop so it was pretty cool. Like looking at the machines they used and all :)
Afterwards, another event truly shook me. After we reached simpang renggam, our relatives drove off to the groom's side to bertandang. We were supposed to follow closely behind the bride and groom's car. Somehow we lost sight of them and my dad just drove first, insisting he knew the way. My dad was searching for a place to park and without knowing it, we ended up in a longkang! Our car was tilted to one side and I was on the left side of the car so I couldnt get out.
I was scared for a moment but managed to climb out from the other side. A group of really nice people from the kampung came to help push my dad's car out of the longkang. Me and my mum just stood by the side, helpless. My mum said something which was an extremely good reminder for me. There was this one guy who looked like he was really in pain as a lot of the weight of the car was on him. My mum said, "Bang, orang ni betul nampak sakit. Kalau kereta kiter takpe bang tapi jangan sampai dia apa-apa". MasyaAllah, it really reminded me that NOTHING is worth more than a human life. When we managed to get the car back on the road, we couldn't stop saying Alhamdulillah. My mum prayed very hard to Allah to grant the man His reward. InsyaAllah, Ameen! But then the pengantin payung was with me the whole time so everyone was searching for the payung to shelter the pengantin. I felt bad ah..
Then I went to my nyai's house. I played with my niece. She's really smart! She asked me to play with her. We played with her barbie dolls. At first I called mine Fatimah and then somehow I started calling mine Aminah. And she was like, "Auntienyer kan Fatimah?". Hahaha! Okay so, a 7 year old has a better memory than me..
When the time came for us to solat, she insisted on wanting to solat with me. MasyaAllah. While I took wudhu' and all, she independently wore her telekung and prepared the sejadah. After we prayed, I noticed that she would do a little prayer. I later asked her what she prayed for and she said, "Ya Allah, ampunkanlah dosaku dan dosa kedua ibu bapaku. Dan jadikanlah aku anak yang solehah dan anak yang baik". Subhanallah! A 7 year old! May Allah continue to guide her always. Ameen! It just shows that it's never too early to teach your child about his/her duties in Islam. I really enjoyed my time with her. She sat in my lap and did her crossword puzzle while I helped her out. She asked me many questions. So sweet.. :D
It was very hot also yesterday but nevertheless, alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah. What a day!
A heart which was broken can never love the person or object that broke it the same way it did before... because the wound will always be there.
I've come to realise this due to past incidents that have happened recently. Lesson learnt for me is that only my love for Allah and His Messenger will never fail or disappoint me. May Allah deepen this love each day, ameen!
IKEA date with Hazi and Rasyiqah was super awesome!! Explored the different themes for rooms, kitchens etc :) wheeeeee.. got a lot of things to do now. need to manage my time more wisely. can't let the stress kick in, or things wouldnt be good.
Totally failed as a pengapit today. Hahaha. Oh wells, I shall just take it as an on-the-job training I guess. So next time can be one for my elder sis or safa ke. Haha ehem ehem! ;P Good experience ah. But no thanks to all the teasing. Hahaha. "The next one eh?". "Wah, ni nanti boleh berjangkit jangkit ni." InsyaAllah, kiter ameenkan sahaja :)
The couple were so sweet though! Maybe I'll post a picture of them here once they are out on FB. First time pegang tangan so macam tak nak lepas gitu. Haha. The whole ceremony, insyaAllah, ada banyak barakah. Feels nice to talk to my cousins and uncles and aunties again. Cheerful atmosphere ah. Alhamdulillah :) May Allah bless this marriage always, ameen! Mum was more excited than the bride's mother. Hahaha.. Her turn will come soon, insyaAllah!
Alhamdulillah.. The past few days have been pretty amazing :) May Allah continue to guide me to His path, ameen!
I tried baking the other day and I realised I have no talent whatsoever in it. Thank goodness it can be considered a skill so I still have time to pick it up. Heh. Bibik helped me a lot. Phew! If not, I'm not sure what would have happened to my brownies and cornflakes. It was fun though and well, satisfactory when people like what you bake :) I think Kak Hanisah's tip helped a lot. That is to banyak berzikir when you are cooking/baking something..
As Kak Farhana Bibi told me, the fastest way to attain love for Allah is through attaining love for Rasulullah. May Allah increase my knowledge of His Messenger, ameen. Allahumma solli ala Muhammad, wa ala a'li sayyidina Muhammad..
You might be far from Allah but, He is close to you! Turn to Him and you will find Him. "If someone says, "I feel far from Allah, ask them,"Who moved?" - Imam Suhaib Webb
And, as my friend said, Allah (swt) loves us too much to give up on us, and that until our last breath, it is never too late to turn back to the Most Forgiving and the Most Gracious.
From Umar ibn Khattab r.a: It is the right of your unborn child that you marry a good person, one who is fit to be the father/mother of your child.
MasyaAllah, this video is an eye-opener for me. The Mufti goes on to list down two more rights of a child which we should all remember.. A must watch video!
"Ya Allah, please grant my parents strength, health and happiness. Please make me a light in their life, make me a source of laughter and smile, just as they have been for me. Guide them to the straight path, and keep them away from worries and grief."
I don't know why but I cried looking at the boy in the picture..
Bila engkau memandang segalanya dari Tuhanmu, yang mencipta segalanya, yang menimpakan ujian, yang menjadikan sakit hatimu, yang membuatkan keinginanmu terhalang, serta menyusahkan hidupmu, pasti akan damailah hatimu, kerana masakan ALLAH sengaja mentakdirkan segalanya untuk sesuatu yang sia2, bukan ALLAH tak tahu, deritanya hidupmu, retaknya hatimu, tapi mungkin itulah yg DIA mahu kerana DIA tahu hati yg sebeginilah yang lebih lunak, mudah untuk dekat & akrab dgn-Nya.
There's so many uncertainties in my life right now that it makes me feel so uneasy and restless. The only thing I can do now is pray to Allah and hopefully, everything will turn out fine, insyaAllah..
From my cousin's(the one staying in UK) blog: Benar-benar menyentuh jiwa..
Alhamdulillah sekiranya korang memang semenjak kecik jenis yg baik2.. Tidak saya.. walaupun saya dulu taklah dikategorikan nakal, tapi masa saya muda2 saya tak menutup aurat hingga agak lambat. Namun, saya bukanlah jenis yg ada boyfriend atau tak mendengar cakap mak bapak saya, tak juga jenis yg keluar rumah..
Bagaimanakah kali pertama korang tertarik kepada Islam? Saya dahulu, kalau jumpa ustad atau cikgu yg direct asyik suruh pakai tudung, saya ada rasa agak ‘memberontak’. Saya pun bersekolah di sekolah yg semuanya perempuan, sampai cikgu2nya pun mostly terdiri drp cikgu perempuan. Saya tak pernah ada kawan lelaki, pergi sekolah pun ayah saya hantar dari door to door, pergi berhantar, balik berambil.. Saya tahu mengapa kena tutup aurat, tapi hati saya masih degil, dan saya rasa kalau saya pakai time tu, macam saya mengalah dgn ‘ustad-ustazah’ yg boring lagi menjenggelkan… “semuanya tak boleh”.
Sehinggalah satu masa saya dikenalkan dgn seorang cikgu ‘Arqam’. Cikgu tersebut memakai purdah, tapi dia tak pernah menyuruh saya memakai tudung. Saya berasa senang dgn dia sebab dia jenis tidak men’judge’ saya. Saya suka dgn cara dakwah dia.. Dia selalu menceritakan dgn saya kisah2 nabi, kisah2 orang soleh terdahulu, dan yg paling kena pada saya, dia selalu bercerita tentang hati.. Dia mengajar saya supaya kasih kepada Allah dan rasulullah saw, sehingga terbit pada hati saya untuk tahu dgn lebih lanjut tentang Islam. Bila saya tahu sedikit sebanyak, barulah saya tahu dan kenal dengan Allah dan Kasih SayangNya, baru hati jadi tunduk patuh pada Allah. Tanpa banyak suruh dan banyak songel, saya mengenakan tudung dengan sendirinya dan saya yakin dan kuat dengan pegangan saya tersebut. Saya tidak ikut2 fesyen orang dan saya tetap strong mengenakan pakaian yg ‘asing’ di negara yg ‘asing’ sebab saya tahu mengapa saya berbuat begitu.
Saya teringat kisah saya dahulu sebab saya perasan recently banyak sgt ‘teguran’ especially di Facebook cara2 berpakaian wanita muslim sebenar. Ada sesetengah teguran tersebut agak kasar, dan ada sesetengahnya membawa pendekatan seolah2 ‘holier than thou’ (iaitu saya lebih mulia drp anda) apabila menegur. To be honest, kalaulah saya kini masih belum menutup aurat, saya akan merasa meluat dgn cara teguran begitu. Seolah2 sama seperti pendakwah yg selalu di gambarkan dalam TV,”ni tak boleh, ini haram, itu haram, itu tak boleh, semua tak boleh!”
Saudara saudari sekalian, bukankah ulama terdahulu berkata, Awwaluddin ma’rifatullah (seawal2 agama itu mengenal Allah)? Mengapa bila kita berdakwah, kadang2 kita menampakkan semuanya menyusahkan? Islam itu adalah agama fitrah, dan fitrah itu adalah perkara yg mudah kerana its only natural.. masalahnya sekarang adalah manusia yg tidak tahu apa lagi yg natural kepada mereka. Wanita2 yg lupa sekiranya dia mengejar kecantikan, trend semasa dan redha manusia, maka ianya sentiasa berubah dan bukan mudah untuk memenagi semua manusia. Fitrah yg paling mudah ialah mencari redha Allah. Mudah? Yes, kerana Allah tidak melihat rupa kita, tetapi Dia melihat hati kita. Mudah? Yes, kerana dengan Allah, kita tak perlu explain atau justify apa2 yg apa yg kita buat, sebab Dia Maha Mengetahui segala2nya.
Sahabat2 yg disayangi sekalian, ketahuilah bahawa Cinta Allah itu melebihi kasih sayang seorang ibu kepada anaknya, dan ketahuilah bahawa cinta ibu itu amat besar, saya sendiri seorang ibu, saya akan berbuat apa sahaja untuk anak2 saya. Kenali diri anda, kenali Allah. Bila ada keinginan untuk bertaubat, janganlah dilengah2kan lagi, entah hari ini atau esok maut menjemput kita, dan time itu kita akan menyesal dengan sesesal2nya, tiada berguna apa yg kita ada. Bila kita pergi kepada Allah sejengkal, Dia akan datang kepada kita sehasta, bila kita berjalan kepadaNya berjalan, Dia akan berlari kepada kita. Beringatlah wahai sahabat2 tentang hari di mana tiada siapa dapat menyelamatkan kita melainkan Allah… Sesungguhnya, tiada yg saya inginkan melainkan supaya Allah memanggil saya dengan panggilan sebegini apabila saya kembali mengadapNya:
Wahai jiwa yg tenang, kembalilah kepada Tuhanmu dgn keredhaan lagi diredhai, masuklah kedalam golongan hamba2ku, masuklah kedalam Jannahku.. (al Fajr:27-30)
Abg Hafiz has been bugging me the last few weeks to tell him what present I want him to buy for me for my extremely belated birthday present. Hahaha, I really don't have anything I particularly want right now so I was thinking hard about it.
Me: Abg, I think I know. You just buy for me a clutch la. Abg Hafiz: *Laughs hard* Me: Huh? Abg Hafiz: You nak practise your driving? Me: *Laughs hard* (with zalifa laughing in the background also) Abg Hafiz: Huh? Me: NOT THAT CLUTCH!
Okay it might sound lame to you but I really thought it was funny! Hahaha..
Went out with safa just now.. Alhamdulillah! Feels like yrs since I last talked to her. I feel so comfortable ard her, just like how I am around my sisters. Haha the funny part was when we were at masjid al-iman.. We mengintip down from the girls' prayer room to see if ustaz Jasmani, my uncle, was there. Safa's like a HUGE fan of him.. After maghrib when he left we quickly ran down, still in our abayas, to meet him. Hahaha.. But then we didnt see him so we just stayed on for isyak. Then isyak came and he was the bilal. MasyaAllah, his azan was so so beautiful and merdu.. Safa was sad that he wasnt the imam.. After isyak, we tried catching him again but failed. Next time kay safa! hahaha i think it's rly funny cos like he's my uncle and all.. Hehe :D
And then went home and guess what?! Ustaz Jasmani was at my house before maghrib!! Hahahahaha.. Oh my, coincidence!
2 and a half more hrs till my first msg kay. Or shld i wait till tuesday? :) with patience comes reward, insyaAllah..
"so we have retained wong kan seng and mah bow tan, and we have inducted tin pei ling into parliament. but we've lost george yeo and chiam see tong. something is very wrong here somewhere."
My friend posted this up on FB and I agree with it a 100%! Sighs, such is the game of politics I guess..
It's 3 am now and I have yet to sleep! Oh wells, no one to scold me tmr for sleeping so late :(
Allah never takes something away from His servant without replacing it with something better.. and Allah never lets a thorn prick His servant without forgiving her sins. And Allah always hears the doa of His servants, despite all her shortcomings and lack of ibadah and obedience.. ya Rabb. So alhamdullillah.. hamdan lillah ala kulli hal.
I was reflecting back on the things my family has taught me today..
I shall not include what my parents have taught me because it's just too much for me to write here :)
Well, my elder sister taught me the meaning of sharing. Sometimes, you've worked really hard to attain something and it's so tempting to enjoy the fruits of your labour by yourself. Then again, everything should be for the sake of Allah. Once, I saw my sister share selflessly and it made me learn this lesson :)
My second brother taught me to never look back in life. I was asking him what I should do if I did badly for this sem and he said simply, "Work hard next sem. This is life. Always look forward. No turning back." :)
My grandfather taught me patience and gratitude. Life was hard during his younger days but he always told me humbly that with God's help, he was able to raise his children. He also often gave praises to Allah. Tending to his needs also needed patience at times but we will all go through old age some day. I guess in a way, he is a constant reminder for me to make use of my youth wisely. I enjoy listening to his stories and kissing his cheeks after prayers or when I am gg out :)
My eldest brother taught me to always look for the good in a person. I did hold grudges against him at one pt of time but I learnt to slowly let go after all that he has done and continues to do for me. And somehow, it felt like a burden was lifted off me. Alhamdulillah :)
From my bibik, I learnt that we should never make excuses for ourselves. Today, the stick of the mop came off and she continued mopping by kneeling on the ground and using her hands to move the brush around the floor. MasyaAllah.
As for my younger sister, hmmmm. That's a difficult one. Hahaha! No la, she reminds me of how far I've come from my younger days (chey macam dah tua mana entah eh haha). I guess that kind of keeps me grounded. Also, there's a sense of responsibility when I'm with her cos my mum gives me the amanah to take care of her :)
Alhamdulillah.. A big thank you to my family also :) Love you all so very much!
Dalam kita melangkah, terkadang diuji dengan ujian yang terasa berat hingga kita terduduk dan menangis. Tapi ketahuilah dan renungilah kembali dalam diri kerana mungkin airmata itu hadir kerana Allah mahu kita jahit kembali sejadah iman yang terkoyak lantaran ada langkah-langkah yang tersasar dari keikhlasan.
can I have this for my 21st birthday? Pretty please?? Haha
Happy 16th Birthday my dearest younger sister! Thank you for always making me laugh and for the purple post it! haha.. Aiyah, long story cut short, I love you a lot okay :) Have fun on your birthday!
We have, as human beings, a storytelling problem. We're a bit too quick to come up with explanations for things we don't really have an explanation for.
I was scared for a moment but managed to climb out from the other side. A group of really nice people from the kampung came to help push my dad's car out of the longkang. Me and my mum just stood by the side, helpless. My mum said something which was an extremely good reminder for me. There was this one guy who looked like he was really in pain as a lot of the weight of the car was on him. My mum said, "Bang, orang ni betul nampak sakit. Kalau kereta kiter takpe bang tapi jangan sampai dia apa-apa". MasyaAllah, it really reminded me that NOTHING is worth more than a human life. When we managed to get the car back on the road, we couldn't stop saying Alhamdulillah. My mum prayed very hard to Allah to grant the man His reward. InsyaAllah, Ameen! But then the pengantin payung was with me the whole time so everyone was searching for the payung to shelter the pengantin. I felt bad ah..
Can you spot me? Hahaha, I think this photo is very cool! :D Thank you abg Sadik!
can I have this for my 21st birthday? Pretty please?? Haha
