“Ibu tidak patut menampar saya begitu kuat, abang. Saya terkejut. Saya sedih. Ibu tidak pernah buat saya begitu selama ini,” kata Bakhtiar dengan sedih.
“Lupakan sajalah, Bakhtiar. Ibu berniat baik. Abang tahu betapa beratnya dia hendak melakukan it, tetapi terpaksa dilakukannya. Itu pun sejenis pengorbanan juga, Bakhtiar. Ibu harus mengorbankan perasaan dan kasih sayangnya terhadap kamu kerana dia ingin kamu sedar akan kesalahan kamu. Itulah keistimewaan seorang ibu, yang membuatnya mengambil tindakan yang tidak menyukakan hatinya, tetapi terpaksa dibuatnya untuk kebaikan anak-anaknya.” Bakhtiar mengeluh mendengar penjelasanku.
“Ibu tidak marahkan saya lagi, abang?” tanyanya lesu.
“Tidak, Bakhtiar. Kalau kamu sayangkan ibu, pergi meminta maaf kepadanya. Jangan siksa jiwanya dengan kamu menjauhkan diri begini,” kataku memberi nasihat.
Bakhtiar mendapatkan ibuku. Aku memerhati dari jauh. Aku lihat orang dua beranak itu berpelukan. Aku lihat ibuku mencium pipi anaknya yang ditamparnya tempoh hari. Aku lihat air matanya mengalir. Aku lihat Bakhtiar juga menangis. Aku menarik nafas lega melihat peristiwa kecil yang begitu bermakna.
-Daripada buku Jejak Warisan.
I find this a very touching scene from the book. It really made me aware of the love a mother has towards her child. And somehow also, I could relate to it since I was slapped before when I was a child. I know my mum loves me a lot and I love her too. I hope she'll forgive me for all the wrong things I've done to her :)
On another note, I can't wait to start on my next Ramlee Awang Murshid book! Cinta Sufi! I hope it'll be as good as its prequels :) And thanks Safa for the heart to heart talk cum wake up call. InsyaAllah, we'll continue to guide each other. Love you! :)
Noah's and Lot's respective wives were lost, whereas Pharaoh's wife was saved for her piety, even though she had lived with an arrogant, prideful man who denied God. Within a couple, each spouse's responsibility, choices, and behaviour determine his or her fate.
The Prophet was the light that leads to Light, and in learning from his life, believers return to the Source of Life and find His light, His warmth, and His love. The Messenger may have left the human world, but he has taught us never to forget Him, the Supreme Refuge, the Witness, the Most Near. Bearing witness that there is no god but God is, in effect, stepping toward deep and authentic freedom; recognizing Muhammad as the Messenger is essentially learning to love him in his absence and to love Him in His presence. Loving, and learning to love: God, the Prophet, the creation, and humankind.
A very meaningful passage from the book entitled, ‘The Messenger’.
What an awesome ending to an awesome book. MasyaAllah :) Allahumma solli ala Muhammad, wa ala ali sayyidina Muhammad.
"So all knowledge or religiosity that does not affect the person with good character, exists a defect in the person's knowledge and religiosity." Habib Ali al Jifri
I love the way Habib Ali smiles :) He has this really calm and gentle demeanour on his face everytime he talks. Each time I see him, I get reminded of Rasulullah s.a.w. I have this desire to spend a day with him and see how he's like in person. MasyaAllah. May Allah bless him and reward him always..
Many people fear death. Indeed, it is a scary thing. I was thinking about it just now and I felt this fear in me. I am not prepared for it even though I know that we, as Muslims, should always be prepared for it. I was imagining myself walking through the thin platform and falling into the Hellfire and the first thought that came to my mind was, "Ya Allah! Forgive all my sins!". For a moment, nothing else mattered.
I suppose thinking about death makes me grounded. Especially when I get too caught up with worldly affairs. It makes me reconsider my priorities in life. I mean you never know right when it's gonna happen. For all you know, it can happen tomorrow. MasyaAllah..
Sometimes I feel like I've kept a lot of things to myself. Yet at the same time, I feel like I should have kept a lot more things to myself. You know the feeling where you suddenly think that you have exposed yourself too much. It's awkward. And weird. Or is it just the mind playing games? You never know. Like being at two places at one time. Some say it's possible. But others will say it's insane. Talking about mindset. Everyone has a different set. Mindset within mindset. Each arguing between themselves. Who's to say who's right? That's not possible. Or is it? Again, as they say, YOU NEVER KNOW.
Cambodia was just awesome. The people, the scenery, the whole experience. I can't thank the Cambokita team enough for making it such a memorable one. Many thanks to Allah for allowing me to go on this journey and making it a safe one. Much to be reflected on. One thing's for sure. I'm definitely more thankful for whatever we have here in Singapore. Compared to Cambodia, what we have here is really extravagant and if only people could see that. Then again, the people in Cambodia are happier to me and more contented. They are so nice, treating us like family. The many beautiful breathtaking sceneries as well. MasyaAllah. Subhanaallah. I'll never forget these eleven days. Playing with the kids at the madrasahs, living the kampung life, the long bus rides and heart-to-heart talks, simple yet tasty food etc.
Cambodia trip from 11th to 21st June. I'll miss so many people here! But at the same time, I can't wait to embark on this exciting trip. Haha, okay I hope it will be exciting, insyaAllah! :D
Take care everyone! Doakan for my team's safety on this trip yeah. Syukran jazilan!
"Ada tiga perkara yang akan aku beritahukan kepadamu. Barangsiapa tidak terdapat salah satu dari sifat-sifat ini, maka Allah akan mengampuni segala dosanya yang lain, iaitu:
Pertama, orang yang mati tidak menyengutukan Allah akan sesuatu.
Kedua, orang yang mati yang tidak pernah menjadi tukang sihir.
Ketiga, orang yang tidak pernah dendam terhadap saudara-saudaranya."
(HR. Thabrani)
From the book that Safa and her dad gave me:
I finally finished it today! It's really awesome! Good reminders page after page for myself. Although most of it will only be applicable to me 5 yrs down the road. Heh. Still, good to know :)
Alhamdulillah! We managed to do up the board in time to present it to Yai at the end of the event yesterday :D Thanks to Kak Farhanah, Hazwani, Faezah, Abg Sadik, Kak Nadiah and Abg Wali!
I love my PKKHB family. Really. Cause everyone is just so happy when we come together. Everyone makes jokes so it's a lot of fun and laughter. The older people are very loving also and they welcome the new members to the family warmly. And there's like no competition between families that kinda thing. Alhamdulillah. They're the reason why I see the importance of keeping family ties. Of never losing the bond between you and another relative. Silaturrahim. I hope PKKHB will continue to be strong as a family..
From a book entitled "The Messenger" by Tariq Ramadan:
The experience of physical and moral suffering made it possible to reach the state of faith where one accepts adversity, where one can doubt oneself without doubting God. In this respect, young Ammar's story is edifying: he had seen his mother, then his father, being executed because they refuse to deny God. Then Ammar himself was tortured in the cruelest manner. One day while he was being tortured, unable to bear any more, he denied God and praised the gods of the Quraysh. His tormentors let him go, satisfied that they had achieved what they wanted. Ammar was alive, but he was besieged and undermined by a feeling of guilt he could not get rid of, as he was convinced that his denial could not be atoned for. He went to the Prophet in tears and confessed to him the cause of his misery and his doubts as to his own value and fate. The Prophet asked him about his innermost beliefs, and Ammar confirmed to him that they were unchanged, firm, and solid, and that he harboured no doubt as to his faith in God and his love. Muhammad calmed and reassured the young man, for he had done what he could and need not be angry with himself. Revelation even mentioned "one who, after accepting faith in God, utters unbelief... under compulsion, his heart remaining firm in faith." He advised Ammar that if he ever again underwent the same unbearable torture, in order to save his life he should say with his lips what his torturers wanted to hear, keeping his faith and his prayers to God firmly in his heart.
Later on, Muslim scholars were to rely on this example, among others, in asserting that Muslims could, in an extreme situation where their lives were at risk at the hands of an unjust power, say with their lips what their torturers wanted to hear. This refers to the notion of taqiyyah (implying the act of dissimulating) and has been legitimated, as here in Ammar's case, only when an individual has to save his or her life in an extreme situation involving unbearable torture. In any other situation, as we shall see, Muslims were to say the truth, whatever the price might be.
This was something new for me and I thought it would be good to share it with everyone here :)
Yai turns 90 today!!! Alhamdulillah. May Allah continue to grant him long life and good health, ameen :) I love it when yai smiles. Actually that applies to all old people and babies. I love it when they smile. Somehow, looking at that smile will make me smile as well :)
And yes alhamdulillah, I have made the decision regarding my course in uni. I pray to Allah that this path I take will be made easier and will bring benefit to me, insyaAllah. Allah knows best :)
Rasul Allah (sal Allahu alaihi wa sallam) said: “When a servant curses something, the curse rises up to the sky, where the doors of the sky shut it out, and then it falls back to earth, where the doors of the earth shut it out. Then it searches right and left and when it does not find anywhere to go it comes back to the thing which was cursed, should it deserve it. If not, it returns upon the person who uttered it.” [Abu Dawud]
Cursing someone who does not deserve it is a major sin (kaba’ir/enormity). An undeserved curse returns to the one who uttered it. Thus, we should be very careful and guard our tongues vigilantly.
From DailyReminders on FB :)
I went to the flyer today! Alhamdulillah. But I wont do it a second time ah. Unless at night cause after a while, the scenery does get a bit boring. My grandfather enjoyed himself, especially telling stories to Abang Shahiddin. So glad to see him smiling and laughing :D (pics on fb)
I'm performing two songs on the 5th of June! So if it rains that day, don't say I didnt warn you ah. Hahaha. I can't get the steps right and that annoyed my younger sister. So not born to be a dancer. Haha. I exercised today! Achievement for me! Had to do it ah before someone continues to nag at me :P
Alhamdulillah, project "Be Beautiful" was truly an enjoyable one for me. It made me thankful for so many things that I have right now. The girls are really an energetic lot and you just feel like being their friend and talking to them. Alhamdulillah, I did manage to strike a conversation with a few of them. I hope they liked the games! Telephone cherades and SPLAT were really fun to play :D
And to Safa, if you are reading this, thank you so much for the 90-min call just now. I think we broke the record again. Haha. Somehow I always feel a lot a lot better after talking to you :) You are always the first person I would think of when I need someone to talk to. You understand me so well that at times, I don't even have to say what I'm feeling and you would know it. Thank you for always being there for me and listening to all my problems. You are truly my best friend, hopefully in this world and the next. InsyaAllah, Ameen! I love you so very much <3
Going out with yai tomorrow. He was saying how he thought his coming 90th birthday would be his last. He said that 90 years is enough for him. I felt very sad when he said that. I seriously do not want to think about what would happen if it came true. I'll just pray for him. It's still a long way but I want him to be there for both my engagement and my wedding. May Allah continue to bless him with long life and good health. Ameen :)
We have, as human beings, a storytelling problem. We're a bit too quick to come up with explanations for things we don't really have an explanation for.
On another note, I can't wait to start on my next Ramlee Awang Murshid book! Cinta Sufi! I hope it'll be as good as its prequels :) And thanks Safa for the heart to heart talk cum wake up call. InsyaAllah, we'll continue to guide each other. Love you! :)
I finally finished it today! It's really awesome! Good reminders page after page for myself. Although most of it will only be applicable to me 5 yrs down the road. Heh. Still, good to know :) 
Alhamdulillah! We managed to do up the board in time to present it to Yai at the end of the event yesterday :D Thanks to Kak Farhanah, Hazwani, Faezah, Abg Sadik, Kak Nadiah and Abg Wali! 
Some very cute pictures of Yai! :D
Pictures taken at Fort Canning Park :)