The whole experience at Pertapis Girls' Home was just amazing. The feeling is just undescribable... It's like being touched a thousand times over by girls whom have gone through so much masyaAllah.. They've gone through what I, a sheltered and pampered girl, would never have thought could happen to girls at such a young age. Yet, they smile and cheer, hiding their past. These girls have taught me the true meaning of strength. I pray that they will always be under the guidance and protection of Allah..Ameen!
Thank you to the STAR committee for being so wonderful. And of course extra credit to ms PD, Sumaiyah Mohamed :D I love you all, my sisters in Islam...
Thanks so much Nur Safarina Binte Salleh for today :) sorry for making you walk so much.. Thank you for being there for me the past few days when things were going haywire.. I realised I took you for granted when you went to JB and I badly needed to confide in someone and you weren't there. I realise that you are the first person I think of whenever I have any problems cos no one understands me like you do :) I love you best friend..
P.S. Pls dont ever feel inferior towards me.. You are smarter, kinder and prettier than me :)
عن أبي عبد الرحمن عبد الله بن مسعـود رضي الله عنه ، قال : حدثنا رسول الله صلي الله عليه وسلم – وهو الصادق المصدوق - :( إن أحـدكم يجمع خلقه في بطن أمه أربعين يوما نطفه ، ثم يكون علقة مثل ذلك ، ثم يكون مـضغـة مثل ذلك ، ثم يرسل إليه الملك ، فينفخ فيه الروح ، ويـؤمر بأربع كلمات : بكتب رزقه ، واجله ، وعمله ، وشقي أم سعيد ؛ فوالله الـذي لا إلــه غـيره إن أحــدكم ليعـمل بعمل أهل الجنه حتى ما يكون بينه وبينها إلا ذراع فيسبق عليه الكتاب فيعـمل بعـمل أهــل النار فـيـدخـلها . وإن أحدكم ليعمل بعمل أهل النار حتي ما يكون بينه وبينها إلا ذراع فــيسـبـق عليه الكتاب فيعمل بعمل أهل الجنة فيدخلها ) رواه البخاري [ رقم : 3208 ] ومسلم [ رقم : 2643 ]
On the authority of Aboo `Abd ir-Rahmaan `Abdullaah ibn Mas`ood (radiAllaahu anhu), who said: The Messenger of Allaah (sallAllaahu alayhi wa sallam) and he is the Truthful, the Believed, narrated to us:
Verily the creation of each one of you is brought together in his mother's womb for forty days in the form of a nutfah (a drop), then he becomes an 'alaqah (clot of blood) for a like period, then a mudghah (morsel of flesh) for a like period, then there is sent to him the angel who blows his soul into him and who is commanded with four matters: to write down his rizq (sustenance), his life span, his actions, and whether he will be happy or unhappy (i.e. whether or not he will enter Paradise).
By the One, other than Whom there is no deity, verily one of you performs the actions of the people of Paradise until there is but an arms length between him and it, and that which has been written overtakes him, and so he acts with the actions of the people of the Hellfire and thus enters it; and verily one of you performs the actions of the people of the Hellfire, until there is but an arms length between him and it, and that which has been written overtakes him and so he acts with the actions of the people of Paradise and thus he enters it. [Narrated by al-Bukhaari and Muslim.]
Kak Farhana Bibi was explaining this hadith to me yesterday in detail (she related it to abortion and the state of our death) and I'm so amazed by it. MasyaAllah..It reminded me of the doa of Rasulullah s.a.w which Ustazah Mariam taught us yesterday:
ALLAHUMMA INNI AS'ALUKAL HUDA WATTUQA WAL AFAFA WAL GHINA
O ALLAH! Indeed I, I ask of You, guidance, piety and chastity and to be free of depending upon anyone (except You) [Muslim]
Ustazah Mariam said that we never know how our end might be so we have to constantly pray for guidance from him. And kak farhana bibi told me that according to this hadith, we can be doing a lifetime of good deeds but then when nearing our death, we do a bad deed and we will be one of the dwellers of Hell-fire. Nauzubillah min zalik..
MasyaAllah.. Cubaan.. You know the feeling where no one truly understands you yet they are telling you to do this and that? It's so confusing.. It's making my heart and mind turn into a rollercoaster..
I visited Suwfiya with the rest of my good friends (ex-colleagues) and we had a good chat :) One thing that struck me which I thought of on my journey home was the statement Suwfiya made. She told me that my whole life, I had led a sheltered life.
The reason why it struck me was because I was feeling rather unhappy with my results earlier on and I felt that things were going tough for me. As I reflected on how my life had been, I then realised that I was actually a pampered kid ever since I was born. It suddenly made me feel so grateful for everything Allah has given me. And for all the blessings that He has given me, I have no reason to be unhappy.
First of all, I have an awesome family. I love them and they love me too. Being the second last child, I was well taken care of. I have a wonderful maid at home (she's really efficient) so I never had to do housework. There was always more food on the table than I needed. My brothers take care of me like a princess. My elder sister was always there to help me with my school work. I never had to work hard to get money. I had good friends in every school I went to. All I had to do was to study hard and everything fell into place. I got into schools that I wanted to. My extended family(PKKHB) is like another wonderful family to me. And the list goes on...
It was only recently after I entered university that I saw and felt what it was like to experience hardship. Going to places like Cambodia and Vietnam, helping out with voluntary work, striving so hard with schoolwork yet not getting the grades I wanted, experiencing my first heartbreak, having conflicts here and there and the onset of having to do housework once my maid leaves us for good...
But Alhamdulillah.. before I was brought to face all of these, Allah guided me through a spiritual journey which I am truly thankful for. There's like no words to describe it. The phase that I'm going through right now, I suddenly feel as though I'm starting to learn the meaning of life. The meaning of ups and downs. The meaning of responsibility. The meaning of faith and tawakkal... etc...
As I'm typing this and reflecting, I find it truly amazing how my life has been planned by my Creator. Truly, Allah is the best of all planners.. MasyaAllah! :) May Allah give us the strength to go through the tests which He will put us through, ameen...
I love looking at the flowers at people's wedding. Very bright and cheerful! :)
I loved the colours of the umbrella so I told dad to pose with it!
anyone can guess why I love this wedding cake? hahahaha...
my same-year-old cousin!
sekarang pergi orang kahwin banyak angan-angan ah haslina.. bahaya.. hahaha! To Kak Fizza and Abg Bahari, may the both of you be blessed with a blissful married life and wonderful children. Ameen :)
And at that moment, I suddenly understood how the sahabahs of our Prophet s.a.w managed to develop such deep love and respect for Rasulullah.. Just when the ulamas were standing on stage for the closing session, I realised that I had come to love and respect them just by listening to their sincere talks over these past two days.. What more the sahabahs who spent days, months or even years with Rasulullah.. With his face full of light and his heart full of sincerity and love for his ummah. I could see that in the ulamas. They came from all over the world without being paid anything, everything just for the sake of Allah.. May Allah grant us the opportunity to meet these ulamas again and many more ulamas who will impart their knowledge to us.. Ameen :)
Today's 'Sacred Path of Love' conference was absolutely amazing. Being there in the auditorium, listening to the scholars giving their talks one by one. The feeling is just awesome. The passion in which Shaykh Ahmed Tijani Ben Omar talks about the love of Allah and Rasulullah is like an arrow that just shoots my heart. It makes me reflect on my own love for Allah and His Messenger s.a.w. His voice was booming across the whole auditorium. Shaykh Ahmed Tijani's qasidah and quran recitation just draws you in and it is so melodious, so heart-wrenching.. masyaAllah, I've never heard a recitation like that. He is known to be one of the best Quranic singers in the whole world. The knowledge that the scholars shared with us, I could tell that it was probably only a drop of water in their own ocean of knowledge. Yet, they talk with such humility and grace that they made me feel ashamed. The way Shaykh Muhammad Ninowy, who is a direct descendant of Rasulullah s.a.w, talked about compassion and mercy..masyaAllah. It came from his heart. He was smiling, his face was so peaceful. I can't describe it. It was one of those moments where I wish I was a guy so that I could stand close to all the scholars and just stare at their beautiful faces and kiss their hands. May Allah bless them all, ameen...
I will share some of the main things which I learnt today. I can't share all because there was simply too much that I took away from today's conference, alhamdulillah...
1) Allah's Love is unconditional. The very essence of creation is Allah's Love. Without His love, there will not be creation. This then links us back to the first of all of Allah's creation, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w who is the essence of love. If we don't love Rasulullah s.a.w who is Habibullah (The beloved of Allah), then it is highly unlikely that we will attain love for Allah. - Shaykh Ahmed Tijani Ben Omar
2) "...the structure of success is always the same. It does not matter whether it is to establish the deen, fight a battle, or build a business. It is the same deep pattern. You start off in failure and you endeavour to succeed to the point of giving up the struggle, and at the point of giving up the struggle, the opening of Allah comes. That is when His help comes. When you have come to the point where you say; 'Yes Allah, I give up, I have done everything that I can, there is nothing more that I can do, I have tried everything.'..." - Shaykh Ebrahim Schuitema
3) Ar-Rahman (The compassionate). 1 word. 1 ayat. 1 verse. That is how important this attribute of Allah is. And it is just as important that we embody this attribute in our daily lives, just like how Rasulullah s.a.w did... - Shaykh Muhammad ibn Yahya al-Husayni al-Ninowy
4) Having a spiritual routine means to practise something daily and to practise means to repeat. If you have a spiritual routine, insyaAllah it will become your akhlak and it will increase your love for Allah s.w.t. - Shaykh Leyaket Ali
5) When a guy says 'I love you' to a girl or vice versa, he will be questioned about it on Judgement Day (whether he was honest). Because love is an attribute of Allah that was given to us by Allah. So make sure you mean it when you say you love someone. - Shaykh Ahmed Tijani Ben Omar
and when I came home today, something happened which immediately tested me of the knowledge I had gained today..InsyaAllah..right now, as I ponder over what I've learnt today, I pray that Allah will increase our love for Him and His Messenger. Ameen...
When we start to think about the future. When we start to think about responsibilities. When we start taking care of someone. When we start to be a better person. When we feel that someone really brings you towards HIM. Don’t wait any longer . Pray hard. May that someone be your partner cum bestfriend for the rest of your life till jannah inshaAllah!
Prayyyyy harrddddd :)
from: http://hearitspeaks.tumblr.com/
P.S. Safa, I really hope our friendship will last forever, insyaAllah.. Even after we have found our partner cum new bestfriends :)
Haha was clearing my shelves and drawers and containers today and I came across letters everywhere! so I decided to read the letters again and was thinking maybe I can throw after reading.. but they are so precious! letters from secondary school up to now. so I decided to just keep the whole bag of it. Haha. I'm too sentimental ah. Clearing my stuff is always the hardest part for me after each semester cos there's just always some value to everything! will need A LOT of storage space in my future house next time :P
It is truly the biggest blessing anyone can ever have, esp after listening to stories of the Day of Judgement. Syukur Alhamdulillah. May Allah bring me under His guidance always :)
Thank you makcik friends for the bouquet of flowers! My first purple rose :)
On a side note, the visit to the Asians Civilisation Museum + picnic by the Singapore river + water taxi ride along the river at night was awesome. Especially the water taxi ride at night. The night lights just took my breath away.. So peaceful. So calming. Alhamdulillah..
my adventure at west coast park! hahaha.. ive never been there before actually. I think I unleashed all my childishness there. :P was running across the playground, climbing this and that, going down the slides etc. haha i took pictures of the things I played with in the playground but not with me on it. haha cos I would have looked like a 5 year old!
the sky was really beautiful, masyaAllah...
my family members plus FSIL :) it was so heartwarming to see yai so cheerful that day.. haha he was making jokes and all also. alhamdulillah :)
we took a look at the ships also :)
the net which i climbed to get to the slide!
the slide was so steep! i went down the slide so fast that I was nearly thrown off it. haha wheeeeeeee adrenaline rush!
i was running around in circles while holding on to the handle and then lifting my feet off the ground. flyinggggggggg :P
Oh this one got me so excited that i jumped onto it but then I was stuck at it for minutes cos I couldnt get down! hahaha.. epic ah.
and then of course, I took pictures of flowers! so pretty :)
Knowing the love Rasulullah had for his ummah and mankind in general is heartwarming indeed. And the mercy of Allah.. MasyaAllah! May Allah continuously increase my love for Him and His Messenger s.a.w, ameen...
This video contains such an important message. Next time I have kids, I know what I should leave them with.. but I'll have to begin with myself first :)
We have, as human beings, a storytelling problem. We're a bit too quick to come up with explanations for things we don't really have an explanation for.
STAR - Sisters towards Allah and Rasul :)
A leader must also be able to follow and if a leader cannot follow than that leader is equal to Pharaoh. 
I visited Suwfiya with the rest of my good friends (ex-colleagues) and we had a good chat :) One thing that struck me which I thought of on my journey home was the statement Suwfiya made. She told me that my whole life, I had led a sheltered life.
I love looking at the flowers at people's wedding. Very bright and cheerful! :)
I loved the colours of the umbrella so I told dad to pose with it!
anyone can guess why I love this wedding cake? hahahaha...
my same-year-old cousin!
Haha was clearing my shelves and drawers and containers today and I came across letters everywhere! so I decided to read the letters again and was thinking maybe I can throw after reading.. but they are so precious! letters from secondary school up to now. so I decided to just keep the whole bag of it. Haha. I'm too sentimental ah. Clearing my stuff is always the hardest part for me after each semester cos there's just always some value to everything! will need A LOT of storage space in my future house next time :P
It is truly the biggest blessing anyone can ever have, esp after listening to stories of the Day of Judgement. Syukur Alhamdulillah. May Allah bring me under His guidance always :)
Thank you makcik friends for the bouquet of flowers! My first purple rose :)
the sky was really beautiful, masyaAllah...
my family members plus FSIL :) it was so heartwarming to see yai so cheerful that day.. haha he was making jokes and all also. alhamdulillah :)
we took a look at the ships also :)
the net which i climbed to get to the slide!
the slide was so steep! i went down the slide so fast that I was nearly thrown off it. haha wheeeeeeee adrenaline rush!
i was running around in circles while holding on to the handle and then lifting my feet off the ground. flyinggggggggg :P
Oh this one got me so excited that i jumped onto it but then I was stuck at it for minutes cos I couldnt get down! hahaha.. epic ah.
and then of course, I took pictures of flowers! so pretty :)