Yesterday, I was happily eating my dinner at Eunos interchange with Kak Hanisah when this black cat with green eyes jumped onto the seat next to me! Apa lagi? Menjerit ah! I am totally afraid of cats so I let out a little scream and I expected Kak Hanisah to be just as scared but noooo... She fell in love with the cat instead! Haha, okay don't get me wrong. I don’t hate cats and I have nothing against them but they just make me scared. And the cat just stared at me until I had to talk to the cat. "Why are you staring at me cat? I am not pretty, dont look at me okay." Apparently, the cat is just as degil as me so it continued to stare at me. Luckily Kak Hanisah was there. She’s so gentle with the cat. Talking to the cat and stroking her head. I think it will take me 982748465372695854372545 years before I do that. Hehh :P I SALUTE ALL CAT LOVERS!
I think 'try' is a verb that is commonly misused, even for myself. Sometimes I catch myself using it in contexts that do not have any meaning. For example, if I say, 'I will try to do this question'. What does that really mean? If I go ahead and do the question, I am doing it. Doesn't matter whether I get the answer right. If I stop myself from doing the question, then I am not doing it. Isn't that right? So where does the word 'try' come in, for this case? Or if my sister tells me to buy something from the market and I say, 'I will try and see if they sell it.' In the same perception, it's wrong too right? Another example is 'I will try and stop smoking'.
Of course, the word 'try' does exist in other contexts like 'I will try to achieve my new year's resolutions.' That kinda makes sense to me.
Oh and yesterday, I wanted to use this sentence, 'I nearly freaked out'. Then I realised that the word 'nearly' in this case doesnt make sense. Like how can you feel freaked out but then stop yourself from doing so?
Haha, okay these are just random thoughts i'm posting here :)
In the future, I will make sure I speak Malay to my kids. It saddens me when I talk to kids from Malay families in Malay and they aren't able to understand what I am saying. I'm not saying that my Malay is good but I do love the Malay language. The reason why I feel that it is very important to know Malay is that it opens doors for our future generation to learn the Malay culture. By communicating with our Malay society, especially the older generation, that's when they will gain insights on our history and our heritage. Personally, I have this hypothesis in my head that the reason why some of us are so carried away with the Western culture is that we are not rooted to our own. And I definitely do not want my kids in the future to be influenced by the negative sides of the Western culture. The strong link between language and culture could possibly be why America and British are both holding on to their languages and not combine them together. (just another random though, fyi)
It's the same with Arabic. Just that Arabic is way more powerful because the door to knowledge is with Arabic. The All-Knowing talks to us in Arabic. The most wise man in the history of mankind talked in Arabic. Our scholars wrote books in Arabic. Im still nowhere in my knowledge of Arabic but I truly find it fascinating. I hope I can master it someday, insyaAllah :)
I'm a strong-headed person or in my sister's words, a stubborn person. I can be pretty aggressive when it comes to expressing my opinions about things which I strongly feel for or against. I think I have to start learning to listen to others and not be confined within my narrow-minded thoughts :)
okay! some pics from my stay at the pasir ris bungalow...
nothing beats listening to you read the words of Allah :)
So yesterday, our engineering professor made us partake in the marshmallow challenge. Each group was given 20 spaghetti sticks, one yard of tape, one yard of twine and one marshmallow. The aim was to build the highest structure with the marshmallow on top. The group with the highest structure would get an additional $50 for their group project this semester. It was pretty fun!!! Here's my group's structure:
I found out that I have no feminine touch/gentle hands whatsoever. Like seriously! I broke 5 spaghetti sticks altogether! Which nearly broke my team's chances of ever creating a structure. Haiz. After the 5th stick I got a phobia of the spaghetti and didnt touch them at all after that.
One of the few interesting engineering lectures ever! :)
Never lose hope because Allah will always help His servants if they ask Him for help - something which Allah was teaching me these past few days :)
It's just amazing.. A few days ago, everything felt like it was never gonna get better. Alhamdulillah, Allah has His unexpected ways of helping His servants. Patience. I truly need to learn to develop that virtue. May Allah guide me always, Ameen :)
Oh and guess what was delivered to me today! TADAAAAAA! A book! Sarcasm at its best man. Hahahaha. But okayla, since I really need this book. Shall make it my textbook for Year 5 and beyond :P Thank you...
New Zealand's one of those places I've always dreamt of going.. I've always imagined it to be a place with lots of snow-capped mountains and flowers blooming to their prettiest form :) I hope I get to go there someday.. After the middle east of course :) insyaAllah, ameen...
The time will come when, with elation you will greet yourself arriving at your own door, in your own mirror and each will smile at the other’s welcome, and say, sit here. Eat. You will love again the stranger who was your self. Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart to itself, to the stranger who has loved you all your life, whom you ignored for another, who knows you by heart. Take down the love letters from the bookshelf, the photographs, the desperate notes, peel your own image from the mirror. Sit. Feast on your life.
-Derek Walcott
It gives hope, especially the first few lines 'The time will come when, with elation...' Will meaning it definitely will happen insyaAllah, the feeling of ketenangan and being redha. And 'with elation' meaning u will not only be at peace and be accepting, but you will enjoy it. Cause the poem says sit and feast on your life, but if you add the muslim perspective, you are sitting and feasting.. With Allah.. Sometimes Allah puts you alone cos he wants you to come to Him only and depend on Him only, for hasbi rabbi jalallah.. And mafi qalbi ghairullah..'
Pertama kali aku menatap wajah dirimu Kau puteri idamanku selama ku cari Pabilaku bertemu seorang gadis yang ayu Inginku nyatakan sesuatu that I truly love you Mengapa kau pergi tinggalkanku di saat kumemerlukanmu Terpaksalah aku menerima dengan sepenuh hatiku
Apa salahku... Kau tinggalkan aku... Menghulur cintaku tanpa kehadiranmu di sisiku I miss you... Now baby please come back cause my heart can't take no more no more ohh baby I miss you...
As time passed by I realised my heart and soul is weak Inside, I asked myself a question why that I love you so much My love for you will never fade away and now hear what I wanna say My love for you will never ever change cause I don't want to end this way
Apa salahku... Kau tinggalkan aku... Menghulur cintaku tanpa kehadiranmu di sisiku I miss you... Now baby please come back cause my heart can't take no more no more ohh baby I miss you...
- Thank you Shikin Isa for this.. so sweet of you :)
The girls at Pertapis home made me so happy today. They must have given me a 1001 hugs I think! haha.. They are officially my happy pills :) Now I gotta try my best to help them in their mathematics, a subject which many of them detest. May Allah protect these girls always :)
My younger sister got her o level results today. And it suddenly hit me that my younger sister is growing up! :') She's my only younger sibling so I've always seen her as this kid which I have to continuously teach, give advice to and have fights with(hehe). This reminds me that I'm not getting any younger myself :P Alhamdulillah, her results were good and her grade for the subject which I tutored her in was also good so Alhamdulillah! :) May Allah continue to guide her both in this world and the hereafter.. Ameen..
I'm the worst student when it comes to the first day of school. Gotta start my engine quick and get back to studying mode! Good thing that I bumped into this auntie outside my usp class.. I talked to her for a while. She's a single mother and she was saying that it's not easy getting money to send her children to school. She told me to study hard for my parents. Somehow it gave me motivation. Gotta change my mindset also and keep telling myself not to let the fear of my grades overcome my determination to study. YES!
will be away at Sabah from 5th to 8th Jan :) Pls pray for me and my family's safety yeah.. I'm pretty scared when it comes to taking the aeroplane.. Thank you :)
Mr Teddy, please take care of yourself when I'm away. Don't let anyone bully you k, especially Abg Shahiddin :P
What's the point of chasing and chasing and not being thankful with whatever I have? What's the point of chasing and chasing and not realising the actual thing that I should be chasing? Am I prepared?
We have, as human beings, a storytelling problem. We're a bit too quick to come up with explanations for things we don't really have an explanation for.
Yesterday, I was happily eating my dinner at Eunos interchange with Kak Hanisah when this black cat with green eyes jumped onto the seat next to me! Apa lagi? Menjerit ah! I am totally afraid of cats so I let out a little scream and I expected Kak Hanisah to be just as scared but noooo... She fell in love with the cat instead! Haha, okay don't get me wrong. I don’t hate cats and I have nothing against them but they just make me scared. And the cat just stared at me until I had to talk to the cat. "Why are you staring at me cat? I am not pretty, dont look at me okay." Apparently, the cat is just as degil as me so it continued to stare at me. Luckily Kak Hanisah was there. She’s so gentle with the cat. Talking to the cat and stroking her head. I think it will take me 982748465372695854372545 years before I do that. Hehh :P I SALUTE ALL CAT LOVERS!
saw this on the road while walking past a row of terrace houses with Safa.. So pretty! the power of reflection :)
I think 'try' is a verb that is commonly misused, even for myself. Sometimes I catch myself using it in contexts that do not have any meaning. For example, if I say, 'I will try to do this question'. What does that really mean? If I go ahead and do the question, I am doing it. Doesn't matter whether I get the answer right. If I stop myself from doing the question, then I am not doing it. Isn't that right? So where does the word 'try' come in, for this case? Or if my sister tells me to buy something from the market and I say, 'I will try and see if they sell it.' In the same perception, it's wrong too right? Another example is 'I will try and stop smoking'. 
I found out that I have no feminine touch/gentle hands whatsoever. Like seriously! I broke 5 spaghetti sticks altogether! Which nearly broke my team's chances of ever creating a structure. Haiz. After the 5th stick I got a phobia of the spaghetti and didnt touch them at all after that. 
A loving heart is the truest wisdom.
TADAAAAAA! A book! Sarcasm at its best man. Hahahaha. But okayla, since I really need this book. Shall make it my textbook for Year 5 and beyond :P Thank you...
Adam asked Hawa what she was created for and she said, "To live with you, in calm and peace."
My younger sister got her o level results today. And it suddenly hit me that my younger sister is growing up! :') She's my only younger sibling so I've always seen her as this kid which I have to continuously teach, give advice to and have fights with(hehe). This reminds me that I'm not getting any younger myself :P Alhamdulillah, her results were good and her grade for the subject which I tutored her in was also good so Alhamdulillah! :) May Allah continue to guide her both in this world and the hereafter.. Ameen.. 
What's the point of chasing and chasing and not being thankful with whatever I have? What's the point of chasing and chasing and not realising the actual thing that I should be chasing? Am I prepared?